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Worry....oh why do you feel like my best friend?

As I was driving home from work Friday night to pick up my husband and head to a Christmas party with our Life Group I experienced what is beginning to feel like my best friend...worry.  I called my parents house to see how my dad was doing after his surgery on Monday and just to catch up.  Well, when he answered he didn't quite sound like himself and asked if he could call me back.  I said sure and hung up.  Well as the seconds ticked by, a bit of panic set in as I began to think about what could possibly be going on.  Was he hurt?  Did he pull a stitch?  Was he hanging some other sort of complication from the surgery?  Was something wrong with mom, or did Michael get in a wreck and was hurt?  Almost immediately after these thoughts started, I told myself "stop it!"  God is in control and He knows what is going on.  But those thoughts of what was wrong kept coming back.  So I tried texting my brother and all he knew was that my grandparents were there....he was playing pool with some friends at the house.  So I asked him to call me (since I kept getting his voicemail when I tried to call him.)  But he responded saying that he couldn't call me until the game was over!  So I immediately decided to just call the house again and get this all cleared up before I had a panic attack.  All that worry over...someone had come to visit dad when  I called and he was talking with them.  All that over nothing!  Then I did some thinking....what good could I have done if something had been wrong and I knew what was going on?  I was 8 1/2 hours away.  I could have done nothing to help.  God knew what was going on the whole time and could have taken care of it without me.  Its that whole concept of control again...we always want to be in control, but in all reality we are not.  Another example of this is cancer.  When we were waiting to find out if dad had cancer, we could do nothing to prevent or help...all we could do is get answers, make decisions and move accordingly.  God was in control the whole time.  He knew what was going on and we just needed to rest on that fact and trust in Him.  I think this is particularly difficult because we can't "see" God with our own eyes.  Sure we can see His works and His creation, but we can't see Him like we can see the person beside us.  It is difficult to put that control and trust in something we can't see....but He is the perfect one to trust in!  He is perfect and totally in control!  Its a tough lesson to learn and put into practice.  Start with baby steps!  :) 

"Those who know Your name trust in You because You have not abandoned those who seek You, LORD." - Psalm 9:10

"In God I trust; I will not fear.  What can man do to me?" -Psalm 56:11

"Jesus said, 'Because you have seen Me, you have believed. Those who believe without seeing are blessed.'" -John 20:29

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